Friends and the like

Just wanna give a shout out to my girl, Janny who just had her birthday. Miss you girl! I miss our chats and seeing you at work. Everyone's leaving and it bites because soon it'll be just me and a bunch of newbies.

Lately I'm kinda feeling that there isn't ever enough money for the things we need, never mind the things I want. My last paycheck, which was SUPPOSED to be mostly my own money to do with what I wanted to, is a paycheck I barely saw any of. I put in my 1/3 to the groceries and ended up paying for 3/4 of the groceries and my phone and other stuff because my sister and her fiance couldn't cover their damn share of the bills. I know they won't pay me back and I won't see any of that money. My sister is supposed to be paying a bit in towards getting me a new mp3 player since it's her fault I lost 60+ cds from her car. I mentioned it and all she screams at me is, "You know we have fuckin' bills to pay too!" I should've known better than to think she actually meant it when she said she'd either replace my cds or help me buy a new mp3 player. Sometimes she just infuriates me to no end!

I don't care though, because this paycheck I am buying myself a damn new mp3 player even if I have to buy it myself! Mine is a total piece and I am tired of constantly needing to recharge it cause it always dies...and the screen ALWAYS freezes up on me! I do appreciate having it though. It was a gift, but it's dying and I need a new one. After that purchase, I am going to buy a new phone. My upgrade isn't until next April, but I need another one before then. My phone still works and everything, but the buttons are starting to push into the phone and that isn't good. Besides, with my discount I can get a decent phone and accessories for a good price. Then, by the time my upgrade is actually here, I can get one of the phones that is due to be released soon, at a cheaper price(hopefully), so I think this'll work.

I still want to take another vacation, either this fall/around Christmas, or early next year. Where to, I'm not entirely sure yet, but I do know I want to do more traveling. Traveling is such a liberating, free experience. I love it!!

Right now, I have a cold and it's totally sucking ass! I feel insanely congested and stuffed up. My nose is completely sore and raw from blowing it so much. Someone, quick... fix it! :p

Tonight I was supposed to call Chris. So I did....and he didn't answer. He was expecting my call too, so I wonder what's up. He better have an explanation for this or heads...will...roll. Haha, no, not really but I hope things are okay. I was really looking forward to talking to him. Chris is a new bud of mine. He's right in along with Wes and Andrew as my newer favorite people to talk to. Man, I don't know what it is but I get along so much better with guys than I do girls. I'm glad I have these people to talk to. They're funny and life definitely is not mundane when they're around.

And speaking of awesome people, an ex of mine has been really supportive and great lately. He sure has grown up and matured since we split. Some days I wonder if I'm talking to the same person I broke up with. I'm glad that things with him and I are getting better because I hated how they'd ended up between us. Constant fights...the distance between us... the stress all of it was causing me... I mean, I was losing my hair because that's how bad it got. But now things are back to the incredible, awesome times!

On the opposite side of things, a friend who I care for a lot has decided to stop talking to me. Not because of anything he did or I did but because he felt talking to me complicated his relationship with his pregnant girlfriend. He has feelings for me and said that talking to me made him want to be with me so bad. I always asked how him and his gf were...how the baby was and the pregnancy was going... I never had intentions of breaking them up. I wish though, that he didn't feel that him not talking to me was the only way for him to stay with his girlfriend and be happy. I wish him the best though. Man... I feel like such a homewrecker... and I didn't even do anything! Life... can be rough....