Self Awareness

I'm going to share with you all a conversation, in which realizations have come forth.
Stay Beautiful = Me /Resisting the Fates. = a friend.

Stay Beautiful says:
resisting fates huh
Resisting the Fates. says:
Hey.
Yes, indeed.
Stay Beautiful says:
fates of?
Resisting the Fates. says:
My own destiny.
It's been quite the night.
And I'm quite the mess right now.
Stay Beautiful says:
alright. i'm listening
Resisting the Fates. says:
Heh, thanks. :) I don't really think there's much to say that hasn't already been said, though.
Seven months, and I'm still just drifting.
Stay Beautiful says:
I came to a realization tonight that I think I'll share with you\
Resisting the Fates. says:
Do tell.
Stay Beautiful says:
Just because the last one wasn't 'the one"..."the one" is out there. Love comes and goes. It hurts sometimes, but we move on and it should make us stronger. Use the good times and the good memories make you stronger. Let the mistakes refine who you are. You are worth something. Someone will come along and realize just how valuable you are, but first, you have to realize it yourself.
Resisting the Fates. says:
Thank you. Wise words, it'd seem. And effective, even, for some. But I'm not sure I'll ever come to that 'realization'. There are some things in me that I don't know if I can come to terms with, and time only goes to make it worse -- not better. Every time I'm almost there, every time it's all about to fall into place, something has to come along and ruin it. And often, it's me.
But I'm still here, eh? :) I'll find my way. Somehow.
The scars on my arm are proof enough I'm willing to try again.
Stay Beautiful says:
You are just being too hard on yourself. The whole "why didnt I do this?" or "I shoulda done that" and "if I had only said or did this, we'd still be together". Those are things you have to stop telling yourself. Sometimes it just doesn't last. But everything happens for a reason, as cliche as that is
you cut?
Resisting the Fates. says:
Did.
I've always been my own worst critic.
But I know that things could've been different. It's not even a matter of "what if".
Indeed, though. I do agree.
Everything does happen for a reason.
Stay Beautiful says:
everyone is their own worst critic. hell, ask my last 3 exes....
they'll tell you i am so hard on myself
Resisting the Fates. says:
Haha
I'd imagine.
Stay Beautiful says:
and i can tell you my biggest insecurity about myself is my weight and self image. But, that's getting better.
Resisting the Fates. says:
:)
That's good.
Stay Beautiful says:
and often, when something happens, I blame my self image for it
Resisting the Fates. says:
I see.
Stay Beautiful says:
yeah. its a definite character flaw
Resisting the Fates. says:
We've all got 'em.
Some just hide them better than others.

Sometimes it just takes someone who has dealt with some of the same things to bounce things off of. Talking with him has really helped with a lot of my own self reflection. When I can verbalize how I'm feeling and be able to share things with others, I feel better. I know I can be better too.

I'm going to leave you all with a song that has pretty much summed me up nicely the past, well, almost forever.

Tied Together With a Smile - Taylor Swift

Seems the only one who doesn't see your beauty
is the face in the mirror looking back at you
you walk around here thinking you're not pretty
but that's not true, cause I know you...

Hold on, baby, you're losing it
the water's high, you're jumping into it
and letting go... and no one knows
you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone

I guess it's true that love was all you wanted
cause you're giving it away like it's extra change
hoping it would end up in his pocket
but he leaves you out like a penny in the rain
oh, cause it's not his price to pay
not his price to pay...

Hold on, baby you're losing it
the water's high, you're jumping into it
and letting go... and no one knows
you cry, but you don't tell anyone
that you might not be the golden one
and you're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone

You're tied together with a smile
but you're coming undone...oh
goodbye, baby
goodbye, baby
with a smile, baby, baby